A Corner Table in My World

I've mentioned several times over the last couple months (in my posts and on Facebook) that I've been planning and working on something (BIG) that was going to change a great many things for my family, my kids and husband, for myself and for the community/region that we live in...  I've said that an official announcement would be coming when I had certain things lined up and some other things sorted out...  I've made vague references and given hints...   And now it's time! So here's the story:  With so many years of experience, so much passion for the sports involved, and so much desire to share my interests and that passion with others in my community, I finally gathered my courage and am taking the leap.  Starting Fall 2013 my facility - Zephyr Athletic Arts Inc. - will be offering competitive and recreational programs in Gymnastics, Dance and All Star Cheerleading!   As of now we can be found on Facebook and Twitter, though the center's ...

With so much going on in my personal life, I guess it’s not unsurprising that I haven’t been updating.   For anyone who is aware of the particulars of my life lately, it’s probably not a surprise that I haven’t really known what to say, or how to say it. It’s hard to accept when someone that you’ve trusted breaks that trust, and betrays your best interests.  And it can become difficult to move on from that kind of... defeat? I can’t think of another word to describe it.  But as with any time of disappointment in your life, eventually you have to pick yourself up, brush the dust off and keep going. Sometimes that means making the best of a crap situation.  Sometimes that means completely removing yourself and going in a different path. And sometimes it means having the courage to do something that you’ve always wanted to do - no matter how scary, or how big it is.   I’ll be honest with you and say that I wasn’t sure, at first, if the course I was conside...

After months and months of concerns, questions, worries and the occasional contradictory moments of feeling success and unhappiness, it's come to an end. In what is still a baffling turn of events (even after a full month of looking back and doubting myself, my previous actions, asking myself "why?", and generally feeling smaller than I've felt in more than a decade), I'm finally starting to look forward again, to tomorrow and next month and to next year and beyond. And now that I am looking at the future again, I'm beginning to realize that in many ways I've been spinning my wheels. Figuratively, obviously. I've spent so much of the last 6 months waiting. Waiting for this to happen, so that I can do that. Waiting for this person to get me information about something so that I can do that thing. Just - waiting. Now I'm seeing that the holding pattern I was in was of particular design to keep me somewhat busy and somewhat content, so that I was...

I don’t know when I became one of those people who are unable to focus on and successfully work at more than one thing at a time… maybe I’ve always been that way.   Maybe I’m just lazy.   Maybe I wanted to believe that one thing, one outside thing, could make me as happy as the things and stories that go on inside of my head.   For a while I think that it did. For a while it fulfilled me in a way that only writing and dance was ever able to.   Then I don’t know what happened.   Well I guess that’s not entirely true, I do know what happened.   It’s just not something that I can really talk about or explain here. (Legally binding contracts and all that…) And now I’ve spent the last couple of months so – angry? Disillusioned? Depressed.   That’s my fault though, and I know it.   I’ve known it all along; I just, I would rather have someone else to blame.   It’s stupid and it’s dangerous to pin all your hopes, all your happines...

For one of the first times since the year began, I'm back. Like a bear crawling from its cave after a long winter rest, I've emerged from my hibernation. And just like that bear I search for signs of spring. Things are certainly warming up outside, but I don't think we'll be shedding all the winter gear quite yet. See you again soon, when I'm back with a recap of what I've been doing for the last three months and start updating you about what's going on now from day-to-day!